Lately I have been feeling frustrated because I can't seem to figure out what I want to do with myself creative-wise. I can never settle with just one thing. I always feel like there is something missing. Something I just wasn't getting. I am wearing myself out worrying about what I could make that will sell. I have found that when I am pressured to create, I go blank. It must come naturally.
I have also been really frustrated with the fact that I can't seem to be as successful as everyone else. I'm always worrying about the fact that others are gaining more followers much faster than I can.
I was asked the other night what I wanted to accomplish with my etsy shop - what my goals were. I answered that I never intend on it being really that successful. I am not business-minded. I like to create. That is all. I hate worrying about pricing, making listings, packaging, shipping, etc.
So I sat down and did some thinking. What was missing?
I realized that my priorities were wrong. My relationships with my Savior & others are lacking because I spend so much time worrying about how to make a successful brand. I have decided that my first passion is serving God and being Seth's partner in ministry. I believe the past year that I have had my etsy shop and blog was God teaching me to gain confidence & courage in myself. I have learned SO much about myself because of this and I wouldn't change a thing. The people I have met along the way have been fantastic and inspiring! They will still be close to my heart. I believe that now God has nudged me in another direction. I can use the skills I have learned in the past year to do a better job in the ministry. I can better serve my God and be a better partner to Seth in the ministry.
Don't worry though. I will still be crafting and blogging. It just won't be my biggest priority anymore. You may not even notice a change much. I will still be doing the same things - just with a new focus. I don't care that I don't have as many followers or selling as much as others. I'm content with the few that are really interested in my work and what I have to say. So if you stick around -thank you!! I'm glad you are willing to stick with me as I go on this journey!
I'm really excited about where this takes me & Seth. I have no idea where but I'm just going to listen & obey.
11 comments:
I think that's awesome. Let God lead you & you can never go wrong:)
As far as followers go...you could be like me, I have zero...haha.
Either way, I'll continue to follow you & wish you well on your journey with God as well as your ministry:)
Hi! You don't know me. But I've been following your blog lately & I just want to let you know I love this post. Crafts should bring joy to your life. Just enjoy your crafts & don't stress about it.
I'm so happy to hear you love Heavenly Father & your husband. Good luck with everything.
You just do what you need to do to make you happy! I'll definitely keep following to see what's in store for you.
♥kayla
www.themindwandering.blogspot.com
Good on you!! I'm pleased you have made a decision that gives you happiness and wish you all the best with this new direction. I will certainly be sticking around to see where it takes you! x
Isn't Jesus the best?!
I know exactly what you are saying. A while ago I realized that my relationship with God was definitely not where it should be due to other things consuming my life.. such as other relationships & things like crafting instead of spending time with God. I realized my relationship with God was only hanging on by a thread because of my best friend, Breigh. But it truly is awesome when God finally opens up your eyes completely :)
love you!!
I feel the same way about my blog and etsy shop. Its frustrating not seeing it come to fruition. But its not the main focus in my life either. I just found your blog and will keep reading as long as you have something to write about. :)
Thanks for sharing this. I don't feel so alone in the struggle I have found myself in lately.
I can't wait to see what is in store for you in Seth!
XOXO
Thank you for sharing...
I know that if you put HIM first other things fall into place. I too have been struggling with this and had to re-prioritize what is REALLY important to me and put my ministry/family before my hobby/business endevours.
I'll stick around! I've been thinking about what you shared too. After I started blogging, I kinda neglect my social life and has been getting late nights, simply because I spent too much time online. Am gonna start focusing on the other aspects of my life as well now, cutting down my online time.
Carol I think all creative people have felt the same way...
I have doubt creep in when I know deep down I am just begin silly...
I really have know idea what direction I am going in...but that's ok cause it seems to work out the way it should...
I have always believed things happen for a reason...whether good or bad it is just meant to be...it makes us strong, sad, happy and loved...
on the roller coaster of life...
I'm glad I read some of your older posts! I'm right there with you on this:)
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