Wednesday, August 4, 2010

New Direction



Lately I have been feeling frustrated because I can't seem to figure out what I want to do with myself creative-wise. I can never settle with just one thing. I always feel like there is something missing. Something I just wasn't getting. I am wearing myself out worrying about what I could make that will sell. I have found that when I am pressured to create, I go blank. It must come naturally.

I have also been really frustrated with the fact that I can't seem to be as successful as everyone else. I'm always worrying about the fact that others are gaining more followers much faster than I can.

I was asked the other night what I wanted to accomplish with my etsy shop - what my goals were. I answered that I never intend on it being really that successful. I am not business-minded. I like to create. That is all. I hate worrying about pricing, making listings, packaging, shipping, etc.

So I sat down and did some thinking. What was missing?

I realized that my priorities were wrong. My relationships with my Savior & others are lacking because I spend so much time worrying about how to make a successful brand. I have decided that my first passion is serving God and being Seth's partner in ministry. I believe the past year that I have had my etsy shop and blog was God teaching me to gain confidence & courage in myself. I have learned SO much about myself because of this and I wouldn't change a thing. The people I have met along the way have been fantastic and inspiring! They will still be close to my heart. I believe that now God has nudged me in another direction. I can use the skills I have learned in the past year to do a better job in the ministry. I can better serve my God and be a better partner to Seth in the ministry.

Don't worry though. I will still be crafting and blogging. It just won't be my biggest priority anymore. You may not even notice a change much. I will still be doing the same things - just with a new focus. I don't care that I don't have as many followers or selling as much as others. I'm content with the few that are really interested in my work and what I have to say. So if you stick around -thank you!! I'm glad you are willing to stick with me as I go on this journey!

I'm really excited about where this takes me & Seth. I have no idea where but I'm just going to listen & obey.

11 comments:

Tonya Church said...

I think that's awesome. Let God lead you & you can never go wrong:)
As far as followers go...you could be like me, I have zero...haha.
Either way, I'll continue to follow you & wish you well on your journey with God as well as your ministry:)

Zaira Benson said...

Hi! You don't know me. But I've been following your blog lately & I just want to let you know I love this post. Crafts should bring joy to your life. Just enjoy your crafts & don't stress about it.
I'm so happy to hear you love Heavenly Father & your husband. Good luck with everything.

Kayla said...

You just do what you need to do to make you happy! I'll definitely keep following to see what's in store for you.

♥kayla

www.themindwandering.blogspot.com

Cat said...

Good on you!! I'm pleased you have made a decision that gives you happiness and wish you all the best with this new direction. I will certainly be sticking around to see where it takes you! x

Miss Haley. said...

Isn't Jesus the best?!
I know exactly what you are saying. A while ago I realized that my relationship with God was definitely not where it should be due to other things consuming my life.. such as other relationships & things like crafting instead of spending time with God. I realized my relationship with God was only hanging on by a thread because of my best friend, Breigh. But it truly is awesome when God finally opens up your eyes completely :)
love you!!

Brina said...

I feel the same way about my blog and etsy shop. Its frustrating not seeing it come to fruition. But its not the main focus in my life either. I just found your blog and will keep reading as long as you have something to write about. :)

Amber said...

Thanks for sharing this. I don't feel so alone in the struggle I have found myself in lately.

I can't wait to see what is in store for you in Seth!
XOXO

♥ Carrie Shan said...

Thank you for sharing...
I know that if you put HIM first other things fall into place. I too have been struggling with this and had to re-prioritize what is REALLY important to me and put my ministry/family before my hobby/business endevours.

Stephanie ;) said...

I'll stick around! I've been thinking about what you shared too. After I started blogging, I kinda neglect my social life and has been getting late nights, simply because I spent too much time online. Am gonna start focusing on the other aspects of my life as well now, cutting down my online time.

Michelle said...

Carol I think all creative people have felt the same way...
I have doubt creep in when I know deep down I am just begin silly...
I really have know idea what direction I am going in...but that's ok cause it seems to work out the way it should...
I have always believed things happen for a reason...whether good or bad it is just meant to be...it makes us strong, sad, happy and loved...
on the roller coaster of life...

Nichole said...

I'm glad I read some of your older posts! I'm right there with you on this:)