Lately I have been feeling frustrated because I can't seem to figure out what I want to do with myself creative-wise. I can never settle with just one thing. I always feel like there is something missing. Something I just wasn't getting. I am wearing myself out worrying about what I could make that will sell. I have found that when I am pressured to create, I go blank. It must come naturally.
I have also been really frustrated with the fact that I can't seem to be as successful as everyone else. I'm always worrying about the fact that others are gaining more followers much faster than I can.
I was asked the other night what I wanted to accomplish with my etsy shop - what my goals were. I answered that I never intend on it being really that successful. I am not business-minded. I like to create. That is all. I hate worrying about pricing, making listings, packaging, shipping, etc.
So I sat down and did some thinking. What was missing?
I realized that my priorities were wrong. My relationships with my Savior & others are lacking because I spend so much time worrying about how to make a successful brand. I have decided that my first passion is serving God and being Seth's partner in ministry. I believe the past year that I have had my etsy shop and blog was God teaching me to gain confidence & courage in myself. I have learned SO much about myself because of this and I wouldn't change a thing. The people I have met along the way have been fantastic and inspiring! They will still be close to my heart. I believe that now God has nudged me in another direction. I can use the skills I have learned in the past year to do a better job in the ministry. I can better serve my God and be a better partner to Seth in the ministry.
Don't worry though. I will still be crafting and blogging. It just won't be my biggest priority anymore. You may not even notice a change much. I will still be doing the same things - just with a new focus. I don't care that I don't have as many followers or selling as much as others. I'm content with the few that are really interested in my work and what I have to say. So if you stick around -thank you!! I'm glad you are willing to stick with me as I go on this journey!
I'm really excited about where this takes me & Seth. I have no idea where but I'm just going to listen & obey.